So things. . .are getting tough. Our apartment situation is not getting any better in regards to solutions. Our family is in limbo and I am having a difficult time working through all the disjointed thoughts in my head. I'm sitting on living room furniture that is not ours, cooking with minimal kitchen items that aren't ours, and sleeping on a mattress that is beyond uncomfortable when I know we have a perfectly delicious bed in our own home. At first I thought we'd only be here a few days so we never unpacked our clothes. Now we're closing in on two weeks so we put our clothes in the dresser and closets. I resented having to do that.
Theo has been sleeping in a too-small Pack N Play, and while he's been sleeping like normal it still kills me. He's a tall kid and is quite snug in there. Plus it's not cushy like a mattress, and I also worry he'll get wise and attempt to climb out. We have to change his diaper on the bed and he especially enjoys kicking his legs up and slamming them down like a coked-out gymnast. Bryan and I have had to establish a restraint system to avoid getting jacked in the stomach. Then my mind turns towards "He never did this at our apartment on the changing table." I can't stop myself from thinking these nitpicking thoughts.
I've had to go back to our apartment a few times to collect some things and walking in creeped me out. Isn't that just downright WRONG? To be skeeved where you live? GAH. It's like a ghost town in there and literally looks like the village of Pompei save for the loaf of bread cooling on the windowsill. Things are just as we left them as we had to get out of there fast.
I know home is where my family is, but that doesn't make this any less hard. Any less stressful. I don't do well with chaos and turmoil and I'm doing my best to keep it together and not just curl up in a ball and never get out of bed. I have to stay strong for Bryan and Theo and move us forward.
Because as long as I'm with Bryan and this kid?
We'll be okay.
thats right....but doesn't make it any easier. pre-elkey i would drive to your office and wisk you away for the day.
post-elkey=praising jesus that she keeps sleep.....so i can't really, um, MOVE right now.
Posted by: kristin c. | August 26, 2009 at 10:19 AM
Hang in there. Having never been where you are myself, I cannot imagine what these two weeks have been like for your family. Thinking of you guys.
Posted by: McCashew | August 26, 2009 at 10:23 AM
Yeah, those thoughts are tough. And you guys will be ok, even if it doesn't seem that way right now.
Hang in there :)
Posted by: Nicole | August 26, 2009 at 10:31 AM
I'm sorry you HAVE to move instead of doing because you want to.
I still feel like I missed part of this story somewhere, but perhaps you haven't told it all yet.
Good luck in the moving; I think you're being positive about being with your family. I feel the same way. As long as I have The Boy and his father (and The Dog, I guess--not happy with him today), we're okay. You all will be too, I have no doubt.
Posted by: clarabella | August 26, 2009 at 10:36 AM
Sometimes, it's hardship that makes people stronger, brings families closer. I hate that you're going through this, but I think it gives you an opportunity to focus on doing what's right for your family. You'll come through this - that I know.
Posted by: SoMi's Nilsa | August 26, 2009 at 10:39 AM
oh the SUCK. hang in there girl. You won't live there forever! Just know that you and Bryan and Theo are together. And hopefully soon the jerks involved in all this will get theirs! gah
Posted by: Jen | August 26, 2009 at 11:14 AM
Jeez, I am kind of dying to know the full story, though I know you said you can't really get into it right now.
Even not knowing much, I can tell you this, I would be just as snarky and restful as you are feeling, and even though the smart side of me knows "I've got my family", the other part of me would be furious! In fact, I find myself really irritated FOR you, and I'm not even really involved in this.
I guess the best I can say is take it one day at a time, and be strong, and do what needs to be done. Whether that's suing the pants off someone, finding a new place, waiting it out and moving back, or whatever the choice may be. Be strong girlfriend. :)
Posted by: Val | August 26, 2009 at 12:59 PM
It really sucks that you guys are the ones being put out over a problem that should have never happened in the first place. But like you said, you've got your boys, and because of that YOU WIN. :) Hope everything starts moving faster towards a resolution!
Posted by: Melissa | August 26, 2009 at 01:00 PM
Ugh. I'm so sorry that you're still dealing with this. Sounds so stressful & sucky... I'm hoping for a great resolution, though. Hang in there & just keep watching that sweet little face!
Posted by: bessie.viola | August 26, 2009 at 01:30 PM
I'm so sorry! BUt one day - the cliche - you'll laugh it away. You're going to get through this! Hugs!
Posted by: Nadine | August 26, 2009 at 01:45 PM
I'm sorry this is dragging on with no quick, clean resolution for you. I remember when our power was out and we moved in with my in-laws for about ten days that even felt like a nightmare, despite the way they were super gracious about the whole thing.
Posted by: Kelsey | August 26, 2009 at 02:11 PM
Yes you will, you'll be ok...soon. Hopefully VERY soon.
Posted by: Sara | August 26, 2009 at 02:24 PM
it's very hard to not be in your own home. Just b/c you have a roof over your head, it's not the same. I hope it all works out.
Posted by: jessica Bern | August 26, 2009 at 07:42 PM
Wow, I really hope things get resolved, the mess gets cleared up, and you get to move back home soon.
Posted by: Lisa G. | August 26, 2009 at 11:03 PM
That sucks, but hang in there. Home is where you hang your heart, or something like that.
And what is the damn deal with your place?
Posted by: Papa Bradstein | August 26, 2009 at 11:57 PM
Good luck in getting you a new home where all of us are meant to be. Agreed in full that those thought are so tough.
Deirdre G
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